Tuesday, November 16, 2010
gradually, the pain eased. the numbness left me. and my heart opened itself again. the page turns and a new chapter beings. a chapter without you. a chapter without the pain you bring.
it's reading week and i'm trying hard to study but i really am not cut out for econometrics. darn. decided to go to bintan with the club because i really need to get out of singapore and i really need some space and time to think. or rather, to not think. to talk stock of everything that's happened in my life through these almost 4 years in nus. i was certain that university will bring to me much more than i can ever imagine. but i didn't know it would be all these and this much. my social circle has evolved and changed so much and so fast that i'm really wondering if all these friendships really would stay. no matter how strong and concrete they seem now. i mean..a certain friendship was really solid 3 years ago, 2 years ago. but look what happened. and look how i've drifted from alison.
can't wait for the 24th..when sophy would arrive..and the 25th..when econometrics can just boot itself out from my life forever and ever.
take heart.
that behind all the defences and snaps and sarcasm and standards you had the heart to love someone who was far from perfect.
have faith.
that you will find that heart again.
with a man with the right kind of situation.