Sunday, June 6, 2010
another year
another year has past. and i didn't make it back to seeyo u. again. i had an excuse last year because i wasn't in the country. but this year..i was. but i was at work. not that i went to see you on other days too. a lot of times i wonder, what if you never left us. what if it was all a cruel mix-up; that you've always been here somewhere. what if you ever came back. i am turning 22 this year. the very age that your clock never started working again, the very age that yours stayed at forever. would i be able to live the rest of the life you never led for you. would i be able to really be happy finally. have i really let go and accepted your premature departure.
there is no truth. there is only perception.
so what about death? is there only perception too? if i believe that you're not gone, would you be back? no. you won't.
at the end of the day..death overpowers everything. including our minds.
do you know, the only one thing in this world that would drive me to tears every single time i think/talk about it is you.
two was your favourite number. because you were born on the twenty second of february. and your license plate number was all twos. two stayed with you your entire life. because when you left you were twenty two.
the day you slipped away was the day i found it won't be the same.
every step i take every move i make every single day everytime i pray i'll be missing you.